YAYA
My sister. My room mate. My soul mate. My blood. My best friend. My mood. My ding-ding girl. My wont-forget-memory. Can I call her MINE? Cause I don't want to lose her. I, once told her that I just can't live without her. But she said I can. She knows I can. With this girl I share everything. I do mean it, EVERYTHING. Laugh times, sober times, ups and downs, east and west, every moment. We never fight over a thing. She's my inspiration of all. She taught me how to be strong. How to face this kind of people, that kind of persons, what do I have to do if I have this problem.. She helps a lot. She supports me no matter what road I am taking. Even though that choice has hurt her feeling, makes her feel abandoned, she smile and laugh. She hates to see me in worry. If she gets mad at me, she'll keep silence herself and I know, there's something wrong with her. To be truth, she rarely tell me her problems. But she heard mine a lot. She will try to comfort me. There's one day, she went to Putrajaya for her event. She went there for two weeks. For two weeks also, I slept outside of the room cause I don't want to sleep without her in our room. I miss her. I don't have anyone to tell my stupid stories. I feel empty. Everyone was asking me, " Where's Yaya, Sarah? " Hey people, I miss her a lot. I'm fucking alone for two weeks. Stop asking me where is she? Where is she? All I know is she will be back. I'm just, lonely. No Yaya. Then, she was back. I realized something different in me since she was back after two lonely weeks. I thought she's the one who's maybe changed. But I did. I don't know why. But its maybe because its kinda " living without Yaya " for fourteen days had taught me to live alone. To be specific, to live alone without your best friend. It hurts her. Even after she was back, I still slept outside on the sofa. I didn't sleep inside anymore. I eat outside, I online outside. If I have any stories, I would just scream her name and she'll come to me. She said, I only need her whenever I have something to tell. She thought she's a place for me to tell story only. Yaya, I know I'm changed. I know. I, honestly could feel it. I know when the times by, we have distanced ourselves from each other. Yaya, I don't mean to do that to you my sweetheart. This changes between us, won't never change my love for you. I miss our old times. We were like twins. Too bad, we WERE. I hope we are still. Honestly, you are one of my biggest strength. Yes you are. Yaya, I love you so fucking damn much best friend. Even though the things has a little bit changed between us, I want you to know. I still can't live without you. My body is living without her best beat of heart.
Sincerely,
Your little sister
Sarah :)
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